Ruthann Batstone, a counselor who is also on Parakaleo’s staff, asked us this question on our last staff call. We were asked write down our answer and to do the same for the next two questions:

What would happen, how would your life be different, if you got what you longed for? What would happen if you didn’t get what you long for?

We then shared how this simple experience of longing impacted us.

Some of us were afraid to voice, even if only to ourselves, our longing. Stirring that pot can be dangerous for there is great potential for disappointment.

Yet, if I allow it, the season of advent (of waiting) awakens me to my deepest longings. The merriment and festivities ring hollow in comparison to the deep ache in my soul for all things to be made right. At Christmas we are reminded that Christ’s coming brings redemption. It is possible for our greatest longings to be met! And yet we wait. We wait for broken relationships and broken bodies to be healed. We wait for that time when there will be no more suffering.

But have you considered that in our waiting, we are enlarged? Ruthann reminded us of this truth as she read Romans 8:21-25.

All around us we observe a pregnant creation. The difficult times of pain throughout the world are simply birth pangs. But it’s not only around us; it’s within us. The Spirit of God is arousing us within. We’re also feeling the birth pangs. These sterile and barren bodies of ours are yearning for full deliverance. That is why waiting does not diminish us, any more than waiting diminishes a pregnant mother. We are enlarged in the waiting. We, of course, don’t see what is enlarging us. But the longer we wait, the larger we become, and the more joyful our expectancy.

Waiting with you,